caring and love vs. realization and practical common sense

caring is an action we participate in because it's what we're told is 'good'
and 'right' and 'ethical' - we do it because we feel bad for someone 'other' than ourself

this is different from seeing that what exists on the earth is what we have created, and that it is actually ourselves that are experiencing the suffering -
so naturally you see that it must stop - so you go about doing what is practical to stop it

imagine you were blind and had always felt pain in your life but were not able to understand where the pain was coming from - you would then focus on the feelings which made you feel 'good' in order to dull the pain or try and forget about it.

then imagine that suddenly you could see! and you looked down and saw that you were standing on a field of sharp nails - ah ha! you would now see exactly and specifically where the pain was coming from - and it would be common sense to begin walking off of that field of sharp nails. and you would do everything in your power to walk away from that field of nails.

- what would not be common sense, would be to continue focusing on good feelings in the hope that the pain would go away.

so, as I see it, 'caring' takes place in the blindness of the mind.

practical correction of what we have allowed is possible when the 'I' is opened, when we realize for ourselves exactly what we have allowed and created in this world, and then we do what is practical to STOP it

what is it to actualize and live what I realize?    if i realize that all are within me as me,  the entire creation, existence -  then what exactly is keeping me from walking within this world moment to moment and unconditionally expressing me in every moment in self honesty?  

fear -   fear to let go of conditioned and habitual modes of communication and interaction with the people around me-    in being born into a family of beings and having spent my entire life with them,   I have formed relationships  with them,   specific patterns and habits of communications and interaction which have become modes which i go into when interacting with a specific being in my family.  this applies to friends, coworkers  as well.   I have learned to say things and do things around people according to the specific relationship i have with that person,   in other words, my actions and speech is governed and directed by the mode that i have created for myself in which to interact with a specific person. 

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to communicate and interact with people according to the relationship definition I have created for myself to exist in with a specific person

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define speaking as that which I do within these specific communication modes which I utilize when interacting with specific people

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define who I am as these modes and habits of communication and interaction

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that in creating these modes and habits of interaction and communication according to the relationship I have with a person, I am separating that person from me, and allowing habitual modes of interaction based in the past to control and direct me in my interactions with people

If I am to actualize the realization that I am one and equal with and AS all beings, then I must not allow myself to continue to go into these limited modes of interaction -  which I have established according to the specific personality of a person in relationship to my specific personality.     I have found what 'works' best with specific people, in terms of communication using certain words and behaviors which create a seamless and conflict free interaction.

this is robotic, and ridiculous.   

to live my words, to create myself anew in this world, as this world,  to direct myself effectively within this world and amongst all beings in this world,   I must be able to stand alone and speak from my own starting point,  the starting point of me as all as one as equal.  without going into the specific modes of interaction , the programs of communication which I have established between me and other beings with whom I have relationships with -  for in doing this I am accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by programs,  controlled and directed by habitual modes of interaction -   stale behavior based in the past, instead of me expressing me as words unconditionally in every moment of communication with a being-   NO compromise,  NO exceptions.